What happened to my maturation?
I’m forever stuck being a teenager
How did I end up in this situation?
I saw my life being so different than this
I hate that I feel such degradation
The sins of my mother make me feel such shame
Twitchy, weird, intense is my manifestation
Which bits are me? Which are my illness?
My dad thinks I use manipulation
Like I’m some evil puppeteer
From my mum I’d like an explanation
Was it so hard to be my mum?
When will I find an occupation?
Gotta pay the bills, sick of eating soup
I’m not happy with my presentation
Always picking, always finding faults
I’m Libran, prone to prevarication
Make your mind up Leanne, it’s not that hard
My whole life feels like a fabrication
I’m a fraud, a phoney, a fake
I’d like an advocate, some representation
I can’t speak up for me, I’m not worth it
My life is no-win, when did I come to this realisation?
I keep kidding myself that I’ve still got time
My life is in ruins, complete devastation
Doesn’t get much worse, could maybe lose my house
I’ve isolated myself so much, utter segregation
Animals are my friends and family now
When my dad listened, I felt validation
One conversation where we actually connected
When owning up to flaws I feel humiliation
Telling one’s truth can be hard sometimes
I’d like to be someone else, a total re-creation
Yes, please Higher Power, can I have a do-over?